When I started this journey of Shamanism and Witchcraft, I thought the difficult part was behind me. The finial understanding of what I was, a spirit worker that journeyed into the otherworld and a witch that craft intent into being. On second thought that definition might be a bit esoteric. So let me say it like this: I am a witch and I pursue advice from Spirits in the Spirit World. Like I said, I thought that was the difficult part, coming to terms with being one of those people. I thought the next part would be far easier, learning a witchcraft tradition.
I thought I would find and join a coven and learn through initiation or through adoption into their tradition. I found a few covens. Wonderful covens that offered Wicca 101 classes, that were long established, that did good things for their communities. But then I found out I was not Wiccan. I looked into other groups. And I found I was not a reconstructionalist (one who is in a religion that is trying to recreate it as best as possible (Celtic, Druid, Heathenry, Asatru). I really enjoy working with people. I really wanted to be part of a group.
But slowly, I learned that I was not suppose to walk any previous path. I was suppose to forge my own. One for me and my family. My guides have been very vague in regard to what this Family Tradition should be about. My only clear picture my guides have given me is a mental image of me leading my family into the forrest from a meadow. It is sunny and there is no trail before us. And that is it. And it plays in my head everytime I think of investigating a group. It plays in my head when I just think of Shamanism or Witchcraft or Wicca or Celtic or……..
It has been a difficult thing to throw away all preconceived notions of religion. I thought for my witchcraft religion it would be simply a matter of learning from others and assimilating into their existing religion. But I am not to do that. I am to lead my children on a very particular path. Reconsider every aspect of ceremony, what our holy days will be, who we will worship, who is a personal guide and who is apart of Our Tradition’s Pantheon. Will everything be fixed from one year to the next? Does everything change with the seasons? What are we to call ourselves? Will the Gods and Goddess that speak to me speak to my children? Are they just my personal Pantheon or our family’s? It seems for every answer there are ever more unanswered ones.
I have a long way to go. It has taken me a long time to understand this. If any of you have done this work for your family, I would love to hear from you.